Lord ... I know a few days ago you do not write anything in the newspaper ... but you know how I felt during this week ... with the work, examination and the parish bulletin ... I'm tired, Lord ... physically and spiritually tired ... and although I tried to write, it's like there's no inspiration, as if "dry" ... so while I talk to you all the time, I have not collected any thoughts here ...
But today I decided to "forced" to write ... write ... even if a few lines but the ideas do not flow as usual and are only single sentences only ... although it has no "feel" like writing, these feelings should also be included in the newspaper ...
Again I apologize because I know that on Tuesday, when I was in the chapel with you, I was reproaching the silence in which I have ... is how if you just listened, without saying anything ... but, Lord, who am I to reproach anything? ... if you want to keep quiet and let me walk alone at this time, you know what you do and I have only to trust that what is best for me right now ... something I want to teach ... but you know how clumsy I can be sometimes ... again, sorry!
You know ... on Tuesday evening after Ivan's class, I was thinking the "dark night" ... the spiritual desert where some get in your prayer life ... maybe that's where you take me? ... No I know, Lord ... I do not know what you want ... but I do know is that I do not want to let go of you ... although you do not hear or see you, or you feel ... I know that You are there ... listening ... and although not have a desire to pray, now is when I have to leave me to prayer ... so, I thank you for the Consecration Sunday we started ... I put all my effort to finish ... not only finish, but to live but now it's a little more difficult ...
Lord ... though I can not hear you ... I know you're there ... and I know you have your eye on me right now ... so, before going to sleep tonight, just wanted to say I LOVE YOU! ... Good night ...
